Vision Quest #12 :: For the love of god!

stop going to interviews if you don't want the job!

Vision Quest #11 :: Fill-er-up!

Loving people is draining. Yes, this is true. But so is an oil change. I look forward to getting filled back up.

So one of my favorite blogs is gone. GONE! Disappeared into the abyss of 404 notifications. "Where Bourgeois Meets Ghetto" is no more.

I let go of my best (and oh so reminiscent of Nicole Ritchie) bff. *all in jest peeps, I'd never REALLY use kiddie text lingo. But in all seriousness, alcoholism is a demon that will eat the best of friendships alive. I'm happy, yet sad. I still have to hear about her escapades of 5-0 chasing her five deep for eluding and drunken idiocracy and hauling off her new man 10+ years her junior in her place to the klink. Somehow this made him her hero, go figure. I worry about the kids.

I came to terms with a friend I care for leaving our country to go back home *to the good life....
all the while cursing America for forgetting this past decade we WERE the promised land. I wonder what my ancestors would think, both native and immigrant.

Here I am now. Partly sad, partly relieved, 100% lonely.

Kinda scary thinking of not having that true friend, companion, partner by my side. You all call it a best friend. But I call it a true gift. I'm officially on the market for a best girlfriend and a boyfriend.

Girls: please no drama queens, have your own life, educated a plus, savvy and hip a must! Are there any of you left out there?

Guys: I don't want contracts and invasions of space. I don't want something that can be argued in a
propsition called #8. I just want someone who likes having me around from time to time and takes
me for what I'm worth. But gaaaawd! All the good ones are taken (at least I mean the ones that want to be involved). You guys know who you are, your either gay or content in your bachelor-ness. It's cool, I'm not hatin'. I never thought I'd actually settle down myself!

That was my mistake. He has already passed me by. She's already got her circle of friends and jumping in now is like infiltrating a high school clique. Doors closed, gone, 404'd or taken.

So I guess today I give my concession speech. But hey, I've saved my resume if any of you guys have a referral.

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That pesky horoscope: Thursday, November 6
If someone you are pursuing gives you an uncomfortable feeling, then pull out now. Trust your instincts when building new relationships. You don't want to have any regrets down the road.


Ok, I get it, I'll retreat.

Vision Quest #10 :: Topsy Turvy

Topsy Turvy

I want someone to tell me why I don't just go out and get what I want already.  I mean, I know what it is.  I'm totally prepared for life with it or without it.  I like things the way they are, but simple content is not nearly as sweet as the bliss of goals attained.  I gotta admit my "retirement fund" is looking slim.  I'm not afraid of the challenge... win or lose.  I'm basically ripe for the picking.  

Guess I need someone to come along and pull me off this damn tree because I can't seem to pick myself and fall into the perfect basket.  Hope it happens soon.  Looks like my only other option besides these birds pecking is to spoil and fall flat on my face.  Don't think that exactly counts as being a go-getter.

weird

Sometimes I wish I was not as smart as I am.  Basically, you can't keep a secret from me.  One of my undeniably (almost freakishly) accurate skills is logic.  Couple that with a helluva good intuition, I got almost anyone near me numbered.  It's quite useful and has saved many a hyde in its time.  Yet the drawbacks are pretty sickening:

a.  With knowledge comes power, as does reality.  Sometimes this reality is something I wish I never had to witness.  Example: obsession, perversion, deceit, etc.

b.  People don't like getting caught or figured out.  This makes relating often difficult.  Over the years I've found that pretending ignorance is best in most cases.  But that in and of itself takes its own toll on myself and those around me.

c.   I missed my calling, I should have been in a job that utilized these skills for a positive outcome.  I should have worked homicide or intelligence.  But with everything else, I really didn't want to jump through the years of hoops needed for adequate promotions in such vocations.  I have always found it hard to pretend under-skilled.  Impatient?  yep... to a fault.

What is all this for?

well in my current real world... I hate stalkers.  I hate pervs.  I hate ulterior motives.  I hate liars.  I cherish mistakes, they help us learn.  Sneakiness and chicken-sh*t hiders... I hate.

I know. I see. It gets you nowhere but further away.

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Lolita

Lolita

I tango~d tonight with you cheek 2 cheek
Steppin in time 2 the south american beat.

you asked me to step outside; lover, come please

What was I 2 say? I told u I was not 4 u.....

"Eye know U're fine from head 2 pumps
If U were mine we'd bump bump bump
U're much 2 young 2 peep my stash
U're tryin' 2 write checks Ur body can't cash
U can't hang with this, girl

Lolita
U're sweeter
But U'll never make a cheater out of me

Cool 2gether, yes, eye must admit
Long time ago, we'd be the shh... uh oh
Like Frank and Ava, we'd paint the town
Just on the floor, gettin' way down"

Lolita
U're sweeter
But eye won't mislead ya
Eye'll feed ya, if it'll please ya
But then eye'll say c ya
U're a fine, mama mia
But U'll never ever ever..
make a cheater out of me

Imagine me on the tip of Ur tongue
If eye took a sip then eye would be on the run
Hellhounds barkin' 'round my door
Eye can't sip U once 'less eye sip U some more

Lolita
Better get out of here
'Less U wanna dance"
said Prince

I heard it in my heart, he's o so right.

Kept it so-oh tight.

So why is it so hard 2 leave u 2night?

Dance with me lover.
Take me Lolita.

i'm on my way down.
You are my chance.
But it really is never
Unless u know forever,
b/c that's the only thing without guarantee...
so say goodbye 2 me

© June 2006 N. Leigh

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Goldilocks and The 3 Bears

June 3, 2006 - Saturday
Goldilocks and The 3 Bears

I'm just a girl
Living in a Goldilocks world
One's just too hot, the other too cold
The perfect one's soul is sold

I wanna heat it up
To fill my cup
But I'm not allowed
So I leave into the crowd
Step up and claim what is yours
Before I close the doors

You could be so right
If you'd only fight

But he's over here running hot
So much that it's gonna rot
Too much baby, it's gonna waste
Cool it down so I can have a taste
Step back, don't ask for more
So I can walk through the door

You could be so tasty
If you wouldn't be so hasty

Then there's you
I'm so confused, I have no clue
The perfect temperature
My longing for you has no cure
To resurrect the past
How long can I remain last?

You are so fine
If only you were mine

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She's a SUPER-STAR!

That's my girl! Woot Woot!
BET Awards 2008!