Jeopardy

Jeopardy is a bitch. It seems like it sneaks up on you like that 5 pounds you slap on around the holidays. You knew the consequences of your actions, but you still ate your second helping and yet another piece of Christmas fudge. Suddenly you turn around and realize how easily your ass expanded into that size 8 you worked all summer to throw away.

It's like that at your job. You can be rolling along pleasing the man then one day, one report is late and BAM! -you're in jeopardy.

The worst one is in a relationship. You find someone who you adore, you want him to feel like a king because he makes you laugh, feel safe, and pleases you in every way. When you really love someone he takes you so high every moment you are with him and every second you're not. Then one day you just snap for no real reason and you feel like shit because you're just downright mean. Maybe it's fear. Maybe it's sabatauge. Or even possibly preemptive measures coming from intuition of the relationship's demise. Or something human like 'taking it out on the one you love the most'. Whatever it is, you're at your worst and that loving man has to see the ugly side of you. You feel like you've put yourself into jeopardy and there's nothing that can fix it but time. If you're lucky, you've got a good man who knows how to love you when you're right AND when you're wrong. But if you're like me you avoid this aweful thing that is jeopardy by avoiding love. Kinda dumb to cut off your nose to spite your face, but at least I admit I'm a chicken sh*t.

Posted by Cocoalove (Flexwriter) on December 31, 2006 - Sunday at 9:19 PM:
Ohhhh you hit on it big time! Yah, we all make mistakes here and there -- and then sometimes the meanie girl comes out with the one two punch. I feel ya. Just remember though, the best part of it is when y'all make up. So go make up and throw a little um um um into it, ya know? It'll be aiight.

Miss Eve:
When you're working hard only just to stay out of jeopardy, the human glitch snaps in... think it's called error. Lol. Here's to a new year with much much less of that!
Posted by Miss Eve on January 1, 2007 - Monday at 12:13 PM

my architect

my architect

perspective

it doesn't feel natural when you first learn how to draw in perspective.
a little mathmatic and a little artistic
makes those lines seem skewed
...until it's finished
how natural it feels now!
all you have to do is trust during the process
of building PERSPECTIVE
trust requires :: letting go

the past two weeks
I had to gain perspective
friends :: family :: love :: life
closed my eyes and drew the lines
that needed to be drawn.
didn't feel right for a second
but I didn't fight
and now it all makes sense
perfect marriage between peace + needs + drive
I let a lot go
and when it was all done,
what matters was still there
in beautiful perspective.

and now, I am
Frank Lloyd Wright

Fire & Honey Carnival Ride

Disinterest is dancing with desire
This little Sag likes walking on fire
Her feet are not quite as soft
But lover she's smoothe as silk
Better stay away if you aint ready to get caught
Gonna be your obsession forever
If she takes you in for just one night
Don't think you bought her
Just cuz you paid the price
You just got a ticket to ride

Keep a cool head
Build her a hearth
So she don't burn wild
Keep her at a smolder, steam, or flame
But don't play a game
Or stay away for too long
Heat like that needs to be fed to stay strong
And passion feeds her like oxygen
Try takin control, better think again
Give her what she needs
Let her fly high but keep her in sight
And she'll come back every time
Like that crazy carnival ride

She gets the honey outta the hive
Scent of cotton candy got you open wide
Sugar crystals burn on every sweet flame
You haven't ever been so high
Schoolboy dreams coming alive
Over on the other side
Of those rows of white picket lines
Just a little freak for your own private show
Volatile fire calls you across every time
And this one's a hell of a ride