I really don't care...

what ice cream Oprah prefers.

to hear of the decor or dog choices of the Obama family. I will still eat up the politics, not the paparazzi.

who dates Real or Chance

about BritNEY's exposé

I will however stay loyal to ESPN and read Richard Belzer's (fiction) "I Am Not a Cop" *thank you Jon Stewart

Lust

Seems like it's nuthin' but trouble.
Euphoria gets ya singing "Should I Stay Or Should I Go"
In the moment, feels right like the other team's fumble
You just watch them cheer and take it like a pro.

•Got me feeling out of control
But i like it all the same

•I find it so tempting, my senses,
Independently i'm in control
Cuz you've got me so naked, I'm achin'
And i'm feeling something sensual

Phonejaxx ft Cosi Costi

•You know you got me burning up, baby

•You're always closing your door
Well that only makes me want you more
And day and night I cry for your love
But you're still not convinced that that is enough
To justify my wanting you
Now tell me what you want me to do
I'm not blind and I know
That you want to want me but you can't let go
Come on, let go, oh

Madonna

•Baby I've got the shovel, and I know that you've got the dirt, so c'mon, honey, let's get together and let's get down to work.

John Spencer Blues Explosion

•You make sick
I want you and I'm hatin' it
Got me lit like a candlestick
Get too hot when you touch the tip
I'm feeling it I gotta get a grip on this
Driving me crazy baby don't you quit
Can't get enought of it

Pink

Cool if your offense is game-tight. Trouble...unless you wanna pay double....

17 days

17 days is all I have left and I'm suddenly all too aware as to how sad I am. I'm pretty sure I'm about to cry and I don't like it one bit. It's been so long since I have, I'd think I forgot how...no such luck, I can feel the welling in my left eye as I type.

My emotions are all over the place lately. This would be a good time to have that best friend.

Vision Quest #12 :: For the love of god!

stop going to interviews if you don't want the job!

Vision Quest #11 :: Fill-er-up!

Loving people is draining. Yes, this is true. But so is an oil change. I look forward to getting filled back up.

So one of my favorite blogs is gone. GONE! Disappeared into the abyss of 404 notifications. "Where Bourgeois Meets Ghetto" is no more.

I let go of my best (and oh so reminiscent of Nicole Ritchie) bff. *all in jest peeps, I'd never REALLY use kiddie text lingo. But in all seriousness, alcoholism is a demon that will eat the best of friendships alive. I'm happy, yet sad. I still have to hear about her escapades of 5-0 chasing her five deep for eluding and drunken idiocracy and hauling off her new man 10+ years her junior in her place to the klink. Somehow this made him her hero, go figure. I worry about the kids.

I came to terms with a friend I care for leaving our country to go back home *to the good life....
all the while cursing America for forgetting this past decade we WERE the promised land. I wonder what my ancestors would think, both native and immigrant.

Here I am now. Partly sad, partly relieved, 100% lonely.

Kinda scary thinking of not having that true friend, companion, partner by my side. You all call it a best friend. But I call it a true gift. I'm officially on the market for a best girlfriend and a boyfriend.

Girls: please no drama queens, have your own life, educated a plus, savvy and hip a must! Are there any of you left out there?

Guys: I don't want contracts and invasions of space. I don't want something that can be argued in a
propsition called #8. I just want someone who likes having me around from time to time and takes
me for what I'm worth. But gaaaawd! All the good ones are taken (at least I mean the ones that want to be involved). You guys know who you are, your either gay or content in your bachelor-ness. It's cool, I'm not hatin'. I never thought I'd actually settle down myself!

That was my mistake. He has already passed me by. She's already got her circle of friends and jumping in now is like infiltrating a high school clique. Doors closed, gone, 404'd or taken.

So I guess today I give my concession speech. But hey, I've saved my resume if any of you guys have a referral.

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That pesky horoscope: Thursday, November 6
If someone you are pursuing gives you an uncomfortable feeling, then pull out now. Trust your instincts when building new relationships. You don't want to have any regrets down the road.


Ok, I get it, I'll retreat.